Bottled Tears

Do you know that God sees your tears?  The Bible actually says in Psalm 56:8 that God keeps track of all our sorrows and that He has collected all our tears in His bottle recording each one in His book. 

Why would God do that?  Sometimes, if I am honest, I wonder “why does God allow me to suffer”.  Why have hard things happened in my life?  Why does God allow the situations that cause me to cry those tears?

It has been over 11 years since the terrible day that I lost my husband of 20 years to a tragic car accident.  That accident left me so heartbroken, so unsure about my future, and so afraid of parenting my 3 children alone.  How was I supposed to face the rest of my life alone?  I can say that God had a chance to collect a lot of tears in that season of my life.

Now looking back, I still can say that I do not fully understand the WHY of the situation, but I can say that I see how God came to my rescue.  Now I can say that I am stronger, I am more sensitive to others, I am more in love with Jesus because I chose to cling to Him with everything I had in me.  I can say that I have found a deep faith that I think could only be perfected in pain (it is still being perfected).  I am not saying that I don’t have sad days or that it has been easy, what I am saying is that God is my Rescue.  Psalms 18:19 says HE rescued me because He delights in me. 

Whatever the reason you are reading this blog, I want you to know that God sees you, He hears you, He delights in you! If you are walking through great loss and heartache, I encourage you to be honest with God and tell him all about it.  Don’t sugar coat your prayers, but cry out to God in honesty.  I remember times of laying on the floor crying and asking God “Where are you?” and “Why did this happen?”  You know what – God answered me and held out his hand to me. I had to choose to take his hand.  I had to choose to let him rescue me out of the darkness. 

Choosing Him was simple, but yet so hard. Saying yes to accepting His hand, trusting God, believing that God only wants good for me and that God has a purpose in my pain was the hard part. Once I realized that His answer to my situation was not the answer I wanted, I was able to learn to trust in His answers he gave to me.

I am now remarried to a great man who loves me and loves my 3 like his own and I have 2 bonus kids that are such a gift. I am co-pastoring a church plant, a new grandma and I am confident that the Lord is for me.  I don’t say that to say all my days are like heaven on earth, believe me when I say they ARE NOT!! But I am saying there is a hope for you and your pain in Jesus. 

If you trust and give it to God, he can bring you healing and hope.  I encourage you to spend time alone with Jesus, just sitting with Him and if you don’t have any words to say that is ok.   If you have cried every tear that you have and you just sit in silence with God.  He is waiting for you like a father waits for his child.  He has those tears collected in a bottle and He is recording each prayer in His book.  I believe God takes those tears and He waters new growth in your life. 

I am believing for you to find your hope and your purpose in God.  That you allow Him to be your rescue on this earth.  That the Holy Spirit brings comfort to the wounds of your heart.  That healing will come forth like the tiny flowers in the spring and that it will grow to be a shade you sit under.  That you will feel how much God loves you even in your pain. 

XOXO

Jacque