Mimaw

Matthew 19:23 …With God all things are possible. I am now the proud Mimaw of Annabelle Clara! That little girl has brought so much joy and happiness to our lives. My heart just explodes with love. However, the journey was long and hard.

Isaiah 66:13 “As a mother comforts her child, so I will comfort you.”

As a mother there’s nothing worse than not being able to comfort and soothe your child when they are hurting. When Megan and Mark were going through their journey of starting a family and they struggled with miscarriage, for me, knowing what to say and what to do was a struggle. I wanted to comfort them. I wanted to love them. I wanted everything to be OK! But all my words and actions could not change the loss. I felt so inadequate. I prayed EVERY SINGLE DAY for peace, for understanding, for their sanity, for a viable pregnancy…That daily connection with God helped me keep my wits about me and helped me feel like I was “doing something” to help.

I am so thankful that our God is a comforting, kind, and loving God. I am very thankful that Megan and Mark chose to lean on that comfort when this earthly mother didn’t know what to do.

I imagined holding each and every one of those babies. Touching their soft skin, smelling baby smell, kissing their little heads. I love them so much. The loss is real, the loss hurts. I do know one thing-I will see them, hold them and love them in Heaven. As much as I hurt I cannot begin to imagine the hurt and loss Megan and Mark feel. I have learned so much through this journey. I am much more sensitive about asking people when or if they plan to have children. It’s really none of my business. They may be struggling with infertility or miscarriage and my bringing up the fact that they do not have children could be a dagger to their heart.

I know God uses all things for good. And Puzzled is an amazing light that has shone through darkness for many people with similar struggles. Sharing experiences is therapeutic and healing. For so long miscarriage and infertility were taboo subjects leaving the would-be parents feeling isolated and like they had done something wrong. That their hurt and heartache were not real. I am thankful God led Megan and Mark to create Puzzled and that He continues to use their story as an outreach.

God is Good!

Mimaw Lori